X of Wands
X of Wands portrays someone carrying a heavy load on their back, struggling and getting increasingly exhausted as time goes on. However, as number 10 in Tarot signifies completion, it means that there is an end in sight, a place of rest where you can lay down your burden and take a breath…
The question is: what after? Are you going to pick up again that burden and proceed with your old ways that you know are not serving your overall wellbeing or are you going to reevaluate your approach to certain aspects of your life?
You see, in 99% of cases the burden we are talking about is self-imposed, mental and psychological. It is almost never about the other person, event or circumstance in our life, even though it is easy and tempting to fall into the trap of thinking so. You may have experienced letting go and retreating from a situation, cutting contacts with a person, leaving a toxic relationship and tasting a temporary relief after those moves have been done, but very soon finding yourself in another situation, with another person and going through very same shit, feeling those same yucky low self-worth emotions and facing mistreatment, lack of respect etc.
We can rearrange the external furniture of our lives as much as we want, but until we don’t address the underlying cause of our unpleasant feeling imprints, we will continue to attract circumstances, people and situations of similar flavour!
It may seem like too big of a job to go and dig for the roots of our emotional triggers and do the necessary reprogramming within our subconscious minds, but trust me - the amount of time and energy you already spent going around, trying to control and micromanage all of the situations to soothe and avoid potential triggering is far greater than the time it takes to go deep within and DO THE WORK.
And, I know, deep down is dark and humid and full of ghosts… but hey! It is actually a pretty low price to pay in order to get to live your life burden-less, embodied and conscious of your worth and value.
We all have stuff piled up on top our shoulders and whether you get triggered twice or 674 times a day, there is nothing to be ashamed about. It is important that you let go of the victim mentality and blaming those who installed certain low self-worth patterns in your malleable childish brain, reclaim your power and responsibility and get to work!
This week I invite you to:
To close up…
Please do not get annoyed with yourself if you are having loads of triggers and ‘soft points’. Everything that is is because it couldn’t have been any other way and there is a specific reason why you are presented with these particular challenges on your journey.
This path is one of GRADUAL UNFOLDING, little steps towards reaccessing our most Authentic Selves and it would be no fun if we could figure it all out in one day!
Give yourself grace of following your own pace and savouring every step of the way while finding a place of gratitude within for all of the burden that invites you to explore yourself in ways that otherwise, let’s be real, you probably wouldn’t!
Lots of love and have an expanding week,