Somewhat before the end of 2017 I found myself with a tiny piece of paper that I saved inside my wallet long time ago, titled “NY’s Resolutions 2017”. Reading through the list I was astonished by the fact that I accomplished or got to experience almost everything I wrote down, as surreal and impossible some of the stuff seemed while I was writing them down one year ago. I traveled, volunteered at yoga and meditation place in southern Portugal, got my bachelor degree, went study abroad, reconnected with my creativity, fell in love like never before and much more... Successful year, you might say. But... was it?
I definitely feel grateful to all the people, circumstances and Universal energy that allowed me to get all of my wishes true. I also feel immensely proud of myself as I know how much work I put into this year to meet some of the goals I set to myself.
However, as much as the reality was suggesting me I should feel really happy and accomplished because almost everything is checked off my NY Resolutions list, there was something wrong, something missing, something we don’t talk about year after year...
Why do we make New Year’s Resolutions Lists in the first place? Ok, it is obvious: we want to accomplish more, grow, learn, create new habits, get rid of old ones that don’t serve us anymore etc...
As with anything else in our lives - we do it because we believe (on conscious or subconscious level) that it will make us feel good, happy, in peace... that just that one goal, one relationship, new house, finished marathon or whatever else you might be longing to achieve - that that one thing would bring us into the emotional state we want to be into. We believe that crossing off items off our resolutions lists will magically transform us into the person we dream of being and make us feel more at ease and in sync with everything around ourselves.
Don’t get me wrong, it might happen in part, every new experience and risk we take changes us, shapes us, allows us to learn new lessons and therefore grow if we decide to embrace and implement the knowledge we gathered along the way...
But from personal experience, together with dopamine hit, surprise and pride I felt as I realized I accomplished almost all crazy goals I set up to myself, there was also a slight sense of emptiness and... disappointment, I’d dare to say.
Like “that is it? That is how it feels to get it all done?”. I guess I was expecting fireworks, unicorns and something of a kind... or I was expecting that if I were to accomplish all those things I would somehow completely change, I would automatically get to that place of ease and tranquilitythat I’ve been dreaming of for so long...
I don’t want to say that resolutions are bad, that setting goals for ourselves is wrong... it is certainly useful if it motivates you and gives you clarity about the areas in which you’d like to experience the most growth throughout the year. My NY Resolutions List for this year is long, big and bold, sitting firmly in my diary and waiting to be turned into reality.
However, other that resolutions I think we should also set intentions for the new year that lays ahead of us. Something that cannot simply be crossed off the list, but should be practiced over and over again, turning into habit, gradually improving the quality of our life and relationships, something that we can fail at on some days, but stand up again and continue with practice. I believe only this kind of reoccurring actions can bring us into the emotional and spiritual space we want to be in - and from that space we can appreciate and celebrate all the other accomplishments and goals.
Take a moment and think about your intentions for this year. Write it down and hold it close to you so you can reread it every time you feel like you are losing direction or falling out of the alignment with your Higher Self.
Here is my list.
Intentions for 2018
-be more present
-be a better listener
-call myself back when I fall into the place of fear and try to see the situation from the place of love
-be compassionate with myself and others
-when falling into judgment, get aware and choose again
-choose love, over and over again
-be light and spontaneous
-stay firm but detached from my opinion and decisions, leaving the space for Source to guide me
-surrender to the Universal intelligence
-give up on struggle and trust the natural flow
-get back into the place of alignment as many times as necessary