I just took that long-desired afternoon nap. To rest my head, to rest my soul, to rest my aching and disintegrating ovaries (yeah, my friend finally decided to visit me yesterday in case you were wondering which I am sure you didn’t).
I like and hate afternoon naps at the same time.
They put me in a strange blurry dreamlike state where I feel like floating just above the ground of sharp “real” things and can vaguely distinguish and impact them, though never very precisely. They escape my hands for a few centimeters, or slip through my fingers or I extend my arm to reach ‘em, but just when I do it, I realize that my arm would never be long enough to actually grab them, which makes me frustrated and annoyed.
Sometimes, though, it happens to me, during my infrequent afternoon naps, that I go for some more serious journeys. Not those “earth in sight”, floating in the atmosphere domain neither-here-nor-there trips for cowards and pussies that I just described. Real journeys. Viagens.
When some strange and powerful force skyrockets me (don’t know whether that’s actually an expression but I like how it sounds, so fuck off grammar nazis, I don’t give a shit about your rules and regulations) out of this solar system, out of every known galaxy in our asleep or awake world. And the journey is the most undescribable one ever, the conjunction of the ultimate excitement and the deepest peace, the meeting point of stagnation and rapid movement, the softest form of glittery white foam spread over the fresh pinkish sea that smells of roses and lavender.
And when I come back from the journey, my soul is so refreshed, my body reinvigorated, my cells pulsing with pink glittery energy and my eyes shining with the glow that is not of this world.
That’s how being aligned and connected feels like, I believe. Those are the moments and experiences that put a soft smile of admiration and gratitude on my face, that fill me up with love and surrender and sometimes even (but, hey, this is just between two of us!) bring up some tear to my eyes because I know there’s only one thing that is,
only one thing that was
and only one thing that will ever be.
Stay aligned, friends.