As soon as I first heard about the popular and widely used dichotomy to characterize someone’s personality - extrovert vs. introvert, it was clear as day that I belonged to the second category.
And I hated it.
Much of my growing up I was focused on changing that trait, wanting to become someone else, be that sociable, open and fun person that I so longed to be. And it was so damn draining.
I don’t believe that there is a strict line between being an extrovert and being an introvert, as our personalities are very fluid and change with time, gained experiences and growth that occurs as its consequence. However, we can all probably relate to one side of the spectrum.
It seems that nowadays extroverts get it better and are more valued in our society. At least I see it that way, correct me if I am wrong. Introverts, on the other hand, are often labeled as anti-social, loners and living in their own little world. These are all generalizations and the truth is kind of different, although it fluctuates as well, as we are all so different and unique.
I guess what I didn’t like about being categorized as an introvert was that list of unattractive traits such as “anti-sociable”, “shy”, “loner”, etc.
However, there came the moment in my life when I got so sick and tired of constantly trying to prove to myself and others to be something that I am not - that I just gave up.
Fuck it. Hope I’ll get it better in the next lifetime.
And what happened, once I embraced my “introversy” instead of pushing it away and resisting it - a whole new world of self-awareness opened up for me and I learned so much about myself.
I learned that all of those “common personality traits” are more or less bullshit
I learned that I like being surrounded by people - but! in limited amounts of time
and I learned that having a daily me-time when I get to be alone with myself is crucial for my wellbeing.
I can’t emphasize enough how my life became easier once I stopped resisting and just gave in and embraced certain parts of me. What you resist, persists, they say. I guess there’s some truth in that.
If you are constantly tired and drained, if in your everyday life there’s more struggle than ease - I challenge you to look inside. Are you afraid to acknowledge your true-self and show it to the world? Are you in the state of resistance to something?
I know that it is hard and that the path of self-acceptance may be painful as fuck to some of us that were brought up in households where we were used to put up the mask to just get by day by day - but it doesn’t have to be that hard. It is only as hard as you decide to be, it is only hard if you resist it.
Open up and acknowledge yourself.
Lots of love