There are lots of reasons why I like to be a woman and there’s just one reason why I hate it.
We never got on well.
Ever since I first met her, somewhere around the age 12, there was always tension and mutual hatred between us.
I remember it was February when I first got the opportunity to actually meet her in person, beforehand I just heard vague and less vague stories about her and didn’t lose much of my time and brain energy pondering upon it.
But then she came - sneaky bitch couldn’t choose the better moment than right after I dressed up myself for the Masquerade party I was really excited about.
I told her hello, we met, I gave her what she usually needs and went to the party, leaving the bonding part for the afterwards, when I get back home.
I just wanted to enjoy the time with my friends that day, but she has different plans for me, getting into the car and joining us at the party. Not just that, my attention was scattered as she was constantly pulling me for the sleeve, not a minute letting me forget about her presence.
That’s how our relationship started.
And it never got much better. It oscilated, we had better and worse days, but there was always that underlying layer of hatred betwwen us, even in those periods when both of us were trying to at least be “correct” to each other.
But the bitch is crazy - even more unstable than me, I’d dare to say. Once she went away for 10 whole months, without notice, without obvious reason - just like that. I didn’t care that much but my mother noticed and was sure I did something wrong, not realizing that she’s the “bad guy” in this story.
This hot’n’cold game still goes on and right now I’ve been getting her notices about arriving almost every day but she’s not here yet. Always late or early and just when I get used to that way of hers - she decides to come on time and catches me up completely unprepared.
I am tired of games, honey. I am tired of resisting you.
But I know we’re both too proud to give up and restart on friendly terms.
Hope the next time I’ll come up in male form.