It has been almost 5 months that I moved to Portugal and I absolutely love it and enjoy all the magic of living in a foreign country and in the city I feel in love with the first time I stepped my foot in it. However, there are some little, tiny things that I don’t like, that get on my nerves on daily basis, accumulate and drive me crazy. Or simply - testing me. Pulling me for the sleeve saying - hey, here is the lesson for you! Here is the place you need to work upon and improve!
I’ve never been a patient person. I kind of take pride in that, because I am able to get things done in half the time most people are able to and if I get an idea or call to do something there is no much time dedicated to analysis, I start immediately, lead by that burning fire of inspiration, taking advantage of it while it is still at its strongest.
Seeing from that point of view, my impatient and rushy personality often helped me achieve amazing things and react rapidly, but all the same caused me many nervous breakdowns, tears and anxiety.
Being in Portugal, which is somewhat like my home country, but much worse in terms of bad organization and everyone being extremely late - I am tested every day.
When something is supposed to start at 9, no one comes ‘till 9.40 and they they go for a smoke, and then they go for a coffee, and then we wait the rest of the people to come and then... ad infinitum. Our classes always start super late compared to when they are supposed to start according to schedule and it drives me crazy because I am kind of unable to come late anywhere and all this waiting and wasted time at the very beginning of the day have the capacity to completely ruin my nerves and make me feel shitty and anxious for the rest of the day.
Obviously, I am usually blaming all those people who are late, system, professors who tolerate that, professors who are late as well etc. But really, even though “blame” is theirs, it doesn’t really serve me doing so.
I believe that every thing that can push our buttons to that level calls us to take a look at parts of ourselves that need some upgrading to be done and that can be healed in order to make our lives flow with more ease and simply feel better.
I’ve been refusing to learn patience for so long, taking pride in my reactive and fast-paced personality, but there are certain qualities and lessons to be learned from patience as well and I believe Universe is offering me a way to heal that segment of myself on daily basis now and maybe I should try to embrace it instead of resisting it and becoming angry bitch every damn morning while waiting for people to show up...
Maybe I should just breathe deeply and dedicate myself on learning the patience, embrace the moment as it is, let go of my rigid approach to time-management for a while and see if I can get some valuable lessons from the way Portuguese people treat time...
There is a lesson in everything. The question is just whether we are willing to see it for what it is or continue pushing our ways, blindly holding for what we knew our whole lives.
Stay alert for Universe’s clues. Every situation holds amazing opportunities to growth and development.