So funny you, humans, are.
Praying for help
terrified of having to change any of your ways.
Praying for change,
for a miracle,
a mystical intervention
and then holding with your
palms, teeth and feet
prefering to die before
shifting the way you see.
There are undiscovered lands
of joy and abundance
waiting for each one of you
if only you trusted a bit more
and controlled a bit less,
listened a bit more
and talked a bit less,
WERE a bit more
and DID a bit less.
Each one of your prayers
The question then is:
are you ready to
hear the answer?
are you willing
to let it all crush down
what you’ve put years into building
from the place of no heart
and act upon the call
that cannot be explained
it does not need?
are you ready to face the fear
that arrises as you’re about to
step on the path without
destination in sight
while the soul rejoices
and mind panically pulls you
to at least consider other choices?
You have the answers.
Your prayers have been heard.
Release the reins and watch with
how much ease and grace
If it’s true that we are all piece of God that has within all the information, all the wisdom and all the guidance that we may possible need while walking this Earthly path - why and do we even need spiritual teachers, gurus, books and podcasts? Can they teach us something new that we already don’t know?
The answer is: No.
But let’s tackle one at the time. We don’t NEED spiritual teachers in a sense that they’d bring forth some new information that we already don’t know. There is no NEW information. When we resonate with a teaching, it feels good and familiar (!) to our soul, not because it is intellectually correct, but because it stroke a cord of recognition within us. It activated a dormant source of knowledge that already exists in our being. We grow fond of a particular teacher or guru because they reflect the brilliance and wisdom that exists in us as well, yet they have that confidence and firmness in the Truth of their teachings that they can step up and spread the information, embody it in a way that feels good to those who support the teachings as it solidifies their adherence to a certain viewpoint or vision of a Truth.
Notice that I am saying ‘a Truth’ and not ‘the Truth’, because there are millions of truths, all equally valid, all equally true and untrue. So, instead of fighting and trying to prove your point to anyone holding a different belief system, accept that they cannot simply switch perspectives and find resonance with your Truth just as you cannot do the same with what’s Truth for them. When you forcefully try to impose any Truth, whether it is upon yourself or someone else and it feels tight and constricting in your chest area - just drop it. It doesn’t serve anyone. The moment ‘a supposed Truth’ creates a closing sensation in the body, it means it is no longer true. We can feel right away whether something is true or untrue for us and the best way to honour that gift is to stay constantly aware of the sensations and walk away from whatever feels limiting and constricting. Truth feels expansive. Opening. Light.
So, we don’t really need spiritual teachers, especially not in the manner we usually seek them, which is from the energetic setpoint of powerlessness and victimhood, expecting they’d save us and give us some divine medicine for our suffering. Many who look for guidance in another human being with the expectation of being saved and miraculously healed without doing their part of the work, end up disappointed, resentful and hating the person as they didn’t live up to their expectations. This is because the change happens from the inside out - and yes - spiritual teachers, gurus and healers can be of great help in the sense they would trigger the light of remembrance of our own innate power, pointing us to those shadowy places where we stored our wisdom long time ago, so we can reopen it and use what’s within to cure and heal ourselves. We do the work, they give us a map. Do we need a map? We could probably find our way to our destination sooner or later, but it would definitely take much more time and effort. However, giving the map is not same as walking the road and that’s what we often dismiss and then blame teachers for the inefficiency of their methods. Can you feel the flavour of the cake by eating the recipe? No. You have to make the cake. You have to walk the road. Choose whichever map you want, but walk it. Or go without a map. But walk it. The worst you can do is to accumulate the maps and complain they are flawed and useless before even lifting your butt off the couch.
Walk the road.
Do we need spiritual teachers? Yes.
If we are to be completely honest, by the time of puberty, most of us is already fairly disconnected from our inner truth and guidance system and operates from deeply ingrained subconscious programming and the saddest part of it all is - we are in larger part, if not absolutely, unaware of it.
All of the answers and wisdom reside within us, but we cannot cultivate enough silence and stillness to gain access to them. And that is where teachings, books and podcasts come in, which again are not solution and salvation in itself, but a key to unlocking the treasure chest resting in the structure of our own cells. It may take time to find a key that works with our doors and, more probably, we’ll notice that we need more different keys and some that worked perfectly well yesterday, today no longer fit at all… It is all good. It is all part of the process. Just remember that even though you used someone else’s keys to unlock the chest of your internal wisdom - that wisdom is yours.
You have the knowledge.
You have the power.
There’s no shame in seeking reminders externally - that’s why we are here all together, to support and help each other. However, do not give your power away, not even for a split second. Do not wait that someone else saves you. They cannot do it.
Only you can.
I love you.
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Sometimes it happens we devote ourselves to a project, a person or a cause, we put all of our energies into it, shed blood, sweat and tears until we’re completely empty and depleted, just to find ourselves faced with the harsh truth that the final result of all of our continuous efforts led to - nothing.
We failed and failed miserably, ended up ghosted by a friend or a lover we treated with utmost care, lost a dream job in a split of a second or not succeeded in getting one we worked so hard for. We lost money we invested in business that failed, spent hours studying to end up unjustly failing thanks to a frustrated professor that never liked us, poured all of our love and dedication to save the person who never wanted to be saved in the first place.
We gave our everything and ended up with nothing.
Or at least that’s how it looks like at first glance.
I know we all had those moments in life, when all of our efforts suddenly seem futile and wasted ‘cause we didn’t end up getting what we wanted or expected. I know the frustration and rage and bitterness that sprout from those situations and at least for a period of time make us not want to venture into anything new that requires dedication, because… what for? We may end up with nothing once again.
And shame. That particularly bad-tasting shame that comes with failing at something others saw us devotedly hustle for and now we have to deal with cynical questions on the topic, false pity trembling on the edge of suppressed smiles from people who just love seeing others fail as their own sad lives are so deprived of any mention-worthy endeavours that involve even minimal risk-taking.
“It was all for nothing. All the hours, days, weeks and months spent __________ and now it doesn’t mean shit.” I heard myself complaining endless times, mentally or verbally to anyone willing to listen. I’d shut up when they’d try to comfort me with arguments that even they themselves weren’t completely sure about, as “It will all pay off one day. Every skill is valuable. Every lesson may end up being useful in certain moment in future.” Yeah, right. Having no other choice, I’d force myself to swallow the pill that contained not more than cheap artificial sugar to push the clouds to the side for a couple of hours, hoping that the bitterness and disappointment will evaporate over time.
Then the shift came.
I cannot quite recall whether it happened during one of my meditations or in those weird, floaty spaces right before falling asleep when you are not fully and properly here nor there, but I saw it and felt it so clearly and it all suddenly made so much sense. It resonated in that deep, further-explanation-not-needed way that only the real Truth is able of resonating within our Souls.
So, let me share it with you.
One of the principal laws of this Universe, as you probably already know, is the one of Cause and Effect. Everything is subject to this law, whether we are always capable of seeing it or not, whether the Cause preceeded the Effect in this linear 3D time or it happened viceversa - the two are inseparable.
Therefore, every concentrated, focused and well-intentioned energy expenditure has to end up in us receiving the same. You will reap what you sow. We throw this phrase around all day long (usually in a threatening manner to warn someone who’s about to take some integrity-lacking enterprise), but have you ever really pondered more deeply upon its meaning and explored the layers and layers of wisdom held within it?
There are many what we called “good persons” who live by this phrase, but do so out of fear (“Karma’s out to catch you.”), as if Universe/God/Source was some bad guy just waiting for us to fuck up, so it could throw whole lot of crap our way and make us pay for it.
Throw that fear-based belief right now into thrash and open yourself to understanding, or should I say - knowing (you already know that inside of you), that the law of Cause and Effect doesn’t have to do anything with rewarding and punishing, there is no “good” or “bad” - they are just our human inventions that (we believe) make us easier to navigate through this life-experience. It is all simply about reestablishing balance.
What goes up must come down. When will it come? We don’t know. In which form will it come? No idea. But it will come. There’s absolutely no doubt about it. You cannot control it in any way or try to make it come down faster, but what you can do is - trust.
You can sit down after a long day in which you gave your best, in which you put your heart, brain and stamina into an endeavour you hold important and worthy, even though the final destination is no more than a question mark wrapped in a fog at the end of a long, abandoned road. You can still sit down and be calm, because… you sow. You swung the pendulum to the left and it will make its way to the right, eventually. You can be sure about that.
However, make sure that your mind and heart are open to noticing the fruits of your well-intentioned labour once they start to enter your reality, as they may not have the form, colour or scent you were expecting them to have and you might miss them and falsely start seeing yourself a victim, “the one that pulled the shorter end”.
The last thing I’d like to address here is the critical importance of the intention that sits at the bottom of our action. We may work our little asses off, hustle all day long and still reap some low-vibe energy. That is so because the sole action doesn’t mean much if the intention behind is rooted in fear, hate, revenge or any other place of low frequency. This is a vibrational Universe where the “concrete”, physical action is but a delicate mask enveloping the vibration that the intention holds.
So, get clear on your intentions before doing anything and make sure you are operating from a place of love, compassion and desire to uplift - then you’ll be able to rest peacefully with sweet knowing that what you planted is soon about to peep through the soil.
Lean into me -
I’ll receive you with open arms and loving heart
whenever you decide it’s time to come back home.
Lean into me -
I have no intention of hurting you nor I ever had
- it was you all along hurting yourself
through resisting my help.
Lean into me -
I am safe and I live inside of you
around you and
I am all there IS
all that remains
once the illusion fails
and its pieces start to fall at your feet,
cover the floor
with their shiny glow
DON’T GO THERE!
there’s no turning back.
you can try, but you’ll only cut your hand
leave them where they are
let them be swallowed by the ground
Lean into me -
Have no fear ‘cause
there’s no fear where I reside
and you can stop trying
to “hold it all together”
and allow yourself
for once to be held
(there was never nothing to be “held together” anyways nor there’ll ever be)
so please -
Lean into me -
as you lean into yourself
‘cause me and you
are much of the same
so each time
guilt or blame
doubt or shame
start lurking into your lane
Lean into me -
and Ill set you free.
We are all creative.
Yes, ALL of us - even you raising your eyebrows and blowing off in disbelief while reading these lines.
If you find that hard to believe, chances are you’ve been confusing the word “creative” with the word “artistic” and not surprisingly so. Many of us use those words interchangeably, as they were synonyms, or otherwise addressing someone as being ‘creative’ while what they really mean is ‘artistic’.
Somehow it happened that our society started to use the term “creative” in contexts strictly related to arts and little by little we forgot that we all possess that often celebrated trait of “chosen ones”, that the creativity is the basic essence of our human nature. That does not mean that we are all artists in the primary meaning of the word, yet we all are Artists, we all are Creators at a much larger, grander scale.
As a part of the Creator itself, we cannot be anything else than Creators ourselves, creating at each step whether we are consciously aware of it or not. The ability to create lies within us and if we don’t claim it, embrace it and fully own it, if we don’t open ourselves up to learn its language and the ways in which it operates - it can easily happen that we proclaim ourselves victims of it and start to blame the external force for something in our life that’s the creation of our own.
The sole purpose of us being here on Earth is to create and explore the ever-growing limits of our creative potential and while doing so be witnesses of the expansion of the Universe and the collective consciousness that happens along the way. Times are coming (and they already came) when all of the beings will be finally faced with the power they have been searching for centuries out there - in the rivers and at the tops of the mountains, while it was always and since the beginnings resting in their very own hands, in their minds and in their hearts. The illusory idea that misguided us for so long, the idea that the power resides in something separated and external to us - has finally come to its last breaths and we are understanding that there’s nothing “separated” nor “external” in this Universe, so the only place where it can be ‘hidden’ is the place we never dared to look for until now.
Having the power comes with having the responsability. Knowing that it is in our hands to bring forth any idea from the higher realms into the 3D form is appealing and horrifying at the same time. It is not enough to know that we have the power to create - we have to train it, study it and get extremely honest with ourselves about what we want to create and why - is the desire for the certain creation coming from the heart place or from the Ego? But that’s the topic for another post.
If you are one of those “non-artsy” people that is still coming to terms with the discovery that you are indeed ‘creative’ too and wanna dive right into this new-found superpower of yours - go on and try it! Have fun, explore! Connect to that inner playful part of you, daydream and jump into the imaginative realms of your mind where barriers and limits no longer exist.
When you do something - anything - leave aside the idea of “how it should be done” or how someone else would do it and instead flow with your instincts, follow that fun-seeking, exploration-craving voice within your heart even if you don’t see where it is taking you.
Usually, we cannot see where it is taking us, because it is revealing new, magical places that our minds couldn’t come up with on their own - it is opening new spaces both to our own awareness and, at times, to the others' awareness as well - which leads to the enrichment and expansion of the collective knowledge.
It is exactly through surrendering and trusting THAT little, playful voice that discoveries and breakthroughs are made, both on individual and collective level - as if there was ever any difference between the two.
Lots of love,
When I talk to someone about the signs from the Universe, receiving messages from the Spirit or connecting to the Higher Realms asking for the guidance and direction, I am often met with confused looks.
I find that many people want to have some kind of confirmation from the Above, but live stuck in the belief that they have to be some kind of “special person” to achieve that, that they have to be one of the “chosen ones”, meditate X amounts of hours a day or have an elaborate spiritual practice in order to receive guidance from the Universal Intelligence.
None of that is true.
We all have the possibility to receive guidance and we all do receive it daily and in every moment. Universe is talking to you, the only thing you have to do is start listening and let go of the fixed expectations of how those messages should make their way into your awareness.
If you are waiting for some kind of mystical experience, an old man with long beard manifesting in front of your eyes giving you suggestions in deep fatherly voice - you’ll probably just end up disappointed and miss out the whole thing.
The first step to enter into the space of Universal Guidance is to open up your perception and get very present and aware of subtle things that pop up into your reality. Be aware of synconicieties, repeating numbers and random words, images, song lyrics etc. that in one way or another, for some unknown reason, catch your attention. And when that happens, do not just write it off as a “fun coincidence”, but embrace it and give thanks to the Universe for establishing the connection with you through that channel. Every time we decide to lean into the sign from Above and follow it all the way through, even though our logical minds can’t quite make sense of it, we strengthen the connection with the Higher Guidance and make it easier for the future messages to come through.
Acknowledging that the coincidences are just the way our rational brain tries to make sense of the stuff that are difficult to grasp from our physical perspective, but that there is a whole much more to it, is one of the most important steps, in my opinion, of strengthening our faith and connection to the Higher Realms (God/Universe) that hold the bigger picture of All-There-Is.
Furthermore, everytime we act upon that Guidance, surrender to its directions and see the wonderful results that follow up, we widen up our awareness to receive future signs that sometimes come in subtle and unobvious ways that often pass unperceived by the mind that is overly attached to the rational view of things.
It took me some time to develop my faith into trusting the signs that I couldn’t explain or see where they’ll take me long-term, but with regular practice and taking leaps of faith, jumping without the certainty that the net will appear - I became better at it and also started to take notes of each time I went along with the signs and how well it turned out at the end.
Here are some ways I talk to the Universe if I am in need of clarity about something:
ASKING FOR A SIGN IN A SPECIFIC FORM
1) Get clear about the question that you want an answer to - ideally it would be a yes/no question and the sign will mean that the answer is positive, but of course you can do it the other way around as well. Just make sure to set a clear intention.
2) Ask the Universe to send you a sign. It can be an image of a pink dog, a certain word or whatever else pops into your mind, just make it sure that you are very specific about the sign you want to receive to avoid the confusion or falling into mind’s trap that it is just a coincidence when the sign appears, ‘cause you chose something that can be seen and encountered very often.
3) Set the deadline. You don’t want to be waiting forever for your sign. Even though time and space we live accordingly to are just illusional and invention of our own in order to make it easier for us function in this world, Universe will adapt to that and send you a sign when you need it. Therefore, set the deadline of whatever amount of time you want. It can be a day, a week, a month. Be specific.
4) Let it go. Once you made the request, let it go and relax into the calm expectation of your sign or absence of the same if the answer to your question is negative. Lean into trust and don’t overobsess or try to push the circumstances to forcefully make the sign jump into your reality.
5) Stay aware of your surroundings and everything that catches your attention for one reason of another. That doesn’t mean being obsessive and overinvested into searching for the sign at every corner. Trust that it will make its way to your awareness without you having to try too hard.
CONVERSATIONS WITH THE SPIRIT
This is the other form of asking for the guidance from above that I heard about somewhere and, although very doubtful, decided to try out and see whether it’ll work.
And it damn well did.
The practice consists of taking a journal or a notebook and asking the question in written form by using your dominant hand. Question can be anything. From the most trivial stuff as “what am I meant to eat for breakfast for my highest wellbeing?” to “What is my life purpose?” You decide how deep you want to go for the day.
I usually start my mornings with this sets of questions from The Course in Miracles: “What would you have me do? Where would you have me go? What would you have me say and to whom?”
After posing the questions, take the pen into your non-dominant hand, place it on the paper, breathe in and settle in your body and see what comes out. You don’t need to think or invent anything, just remain a calm withness of whatever comes up, releasing the need to try to intervene in any way. What would you do with the answers and advice that come up is upon you, but let the Spirit talk freely.
I know it sounds really woo-woo and bullshitty (I felt the same way about this practice before actually starting it) but it works perfectly and accurately that it creeped me out in the beginning.
If any of you have some other tips, advice and experiences on the topic, I’d be more than glad to hear about it!
Lots of love,
When I embarked on this spiritual journey, started reading books and articles on personal development, spirituality, psychology, mindset etc. and expanding my knowledge and awareness on different concepts, patterns and ideas, building my vocabulary to describe and affirm subtleties of the reality I was vaguely familiar with, but couldn’t quite grasp them yet without having the fertile ground where to plant them and leave them flourish and develop within my consciousness; when I started meditating, writing pages and pages in my journal until the dusty surface washed off and the deeper truth could reveal itself to the page; when I started feeling and experiencing things that were beyond my understanding of this world and Universe, expanding and shifting my perception of All-that-is, making me question things and go back to the beginnings, start the journey back to the heart from the overactive mind where I lived for many years - I naturally felt a strong urge to start sharing those realisations and “downloads” with my close ones.
How could I keep for myself those profound experiences and mind openings? How could I live with the knowledge that brought so much relief to my world and not share it with those who I love and want the best for?
If you had a similar experience and you’ve tried to push upon others mind-shifts you have had, if you’ve tried to give them books, send them links, talk for hours ending up feeling unheard, misinterpreted and frustrated at the end of it all - you are certainly not alone. I believe that urge to help others with what have helped us and believing it’ll do the same for them is natural, but it shouldn’t be acted upon if there’s no invitation to do so.
…and yeah, it can be quite tough to resist it.
You may have tried - it may seem so fucking obvious to you what someone has to hear or do to better their life or their mindset and change their reality, but if you put all that energy into trying to depict to them what is clear to you and you end up facing the wall of incomprehension, feeling disappointed and even a bit (or, let’s be real, a lot) annoyed - it’s time to back off.
This one has been a hard lesson to me and even though I had accepted it on some level, it still pisses me off that I cannot intervene and help (or what my mind perceives as “help”), but instead remain silent and calmly repeat to myself: “It is their path and they have to walk it their way. There’s a reason for that and the Higher Intelligence knows better than my limited human mind.” I can love them anyways - disagree with them and even avoid certain topics - but love them at the point there are at, remaining extremely alert to any sense of superiority that Ego may come up with and dissolving it right away by understanding that each being has a curriculum in this particular lifetime and that each one of them is as valuable as the next one - none of them is inferior or superior, none of them is more elevated or more spiritual than the next one - they are just what they are.
Judging the state of consciousness or how awaken or “spiritual” someone is according to our idea of what being “awake” is (which is, again, nothing else than another trap of the Ego trying to make us feel separated and superior, whatever the content is) is judging our very selves in another parallel reality or in another lifetime.
We pass through different roles, genders and life circumstances in different lifetimes and in order for them to be taken to the completion we have to live according to our own Curriculum that came along with the lifetime in question. Sharing the information and knowledge when invited to do so is certainly welcomed and beneficial, but we shouldn’t get attached to the results of that sharing or grow the expectations of how that should change something within the other person. If it does, than it was meant to do that, if it doesn’t, that it was meant to do just that and instead of forcing and pushing harder - simply step back and honour the Universe’s plan for that person, honour the Higher Wisdom that’s guiding us all - and in that sense - we are never really lost. We are just living out our curriculums with more or less ease, dependent on how resistant we are to it or what are the lessons that need to be integrated in this lifetime.
So, next time you feel annoyed with someone “not getting you” or misinterpreting your words, next time you feel compelled to push someone into reading that book “that will change their life” even though they show no interest at all in doing so - take a long deep breath, go within and bless the person, bless the path they are on and bless how different it is from yours while acknowledging that is no better or worse, it simply IS.
And it is beautiful and magical all the same.
I love you.
As connected as I naturally am to my intuitive side, I spent most of my teenage years completely cut off from my internal guidance. Day after day, I’d be shutting its voice and finding the shelter within the mind, rationally evaluating any doubt and decision I was about to take and running to others for the advice and direction, whether I really needed someone else’s advice on the topic or not.
My only sources of guidance were rational evaluation and other people’s opinion. I kind of forgot how did it feel to “hear the whispers of my inner guide”.
I was left completely confused when my therapist asked me for the first time:
-OK, but what do you FEEL you wanna do about that?”
-What do I FEEL? Well, obviously there are x advantages and y disadvantages, therefore I should...
-No no no, not what you SHOULD do or what they want you to do, but what your heart wants?
My heart?? I had no idea. I lost the access to that part of myself and it took some serious work and tuning in to rediscover the path to that calm, safe, knowing place within me.
The reason why I am writing this post is because innumerous number of times along the journey to reconnecting to the voice of my intuitive side, I stumbled upon the challenge of discerning whether it was really my intuition speaking up or whether it was just the fear trying to prevent me from doing something that may benefit me and bring joy to my heart, but it is at the same time risky, uncomfortable and requires some courage. And, sometimes, it is reaaaally hard to distinguish one from the other, as the fear, in desperate want of our Ego to protect us, knows all the tricks to mask itself and hide behind any role that’s needed in order to get our attention and persuade us to choose it.
Intuition is like a muscle, the more you tap into it and train it - the stronger it gets. However, in order to get to that point and start developing the muscle, we have to do some deep inner work, getting quiet on regular basis and tapping into our inner space so we can learn - or really remember - the language of our heart and soul. When I’d be in doubt which voice is my intuitive voice and which is the fear-based one, I’d say outloud the question that I’d have and put a hand on my heart space, closing the eyes and getting really aware of anything happening in that space. Then I’d say one after the other possible solution to my challenge and stay conscious of how it feels in my chest while I am pronouncing one particular possibility. If the sensation is warm, expanding, calming and evolving - that was my intuition saying “yeesss, that’s the right way”. If I’d feel a sudden drop in energy, getting slightly tense, the sensation of closing in the Fifth Chakra area, almost like fog entering my body - I’d know it was the fear speaking, trying to prevent me and save me from potential hurt and disappointment.
If you are still struggling a lot or just from time to time (I, personally, still do sometimes when it is about stuff I am particularly sensitive about or topic that tends to trigger the old wounds and patterns) to hear the voice of the Internal Guide, don’t be harsh with yourself, give yourself love, acceptance and - patience. It takes time, it takes being quiet, staying superaware, being willing to look inside and... trust. Trust that you can find that place, that your body gives you signals and that there is nothing you can really DO about all of this other than listen... really listen.