When you hear the music, it is your duty to start dancing.
Do not question the rhythm. It is not your job to question the rhythm or bring your mind between the beats of the song. You just need to surrender to the flow and to the melody and make yourself as clear vessel as possible so that the stream of energy can move forward and take form into this physical time-space reality unobstructed and pure. You will be called to channel it in a form that suits your skills and aptitudes the best so do not question the form in which you are naturally drawn to express the Flow.
Just keep on dancing and be aware of thoughts that pop up in the process trying to distract you from the rhythm. Go above them and don’t let them pull you aside, as once the Flow is interrupted it is hard to come back. Once you miss a few steps, it is hard to jump back in. You may need to start from the very beginning again, but music comes when it comes, you cannot force the music to come, you only prepare the environment within your psyche so that it is susceptible for the Flow to choose your portal as one where it wants to be expressed through.
It is important not to stop dancing while the music is on. Edit later. Ponder about what happened when all is over, but don’t interrupt the Flow. Don’t ever interrupt the Flow. It is not you who is inventing the steps, steps were already there, they are just being expressed through you. Don’t take pride in what comes out, you didn’t create it. You channeled it. You gave the form to the content that is universal, infinite and never-changing, simply flowing through its endless variations of form so it can be available to all creatures on this Earth as not every form resonates with everyone.
Even when it’s over, when you look back and edit, do your best to leave the Ego aside. Your job now is to polish the form so that the content shines brighter, it is not to perfect the form so that you can get praise and approval while obscuring the content that lays within. By doing so, you are not serving anyone - you are doing more damage than good and you are not fulfilling your role as a channel for the higher wisdom to be expressed through.
We are creators, but not in the sense in which we believe we are.
Ideas flow around, going from person to person until they find the vessel clean enough through which they can gain form. You are form giver, a messenger, the connector of dimensions. Your job is to work hard, to find the best possible ways to represent the content as it is, without blurring it by the Ego’s hunger for praise. The creation is not about affirming the Ego and your specialness, it is about serving the collective, accelerating the expansion rate of this Universe and celebrating the Eternal Flow that runs through every particle of every thing, celebrating the Unity and Oneness and the Truth that’s at the base of our Existence.
I see birds singing inside my chest
and grey clouds taking step back
I see you watching me while
I’m trying to catch the lines
of the tree that stands in the view
of the lake
and I smile inside
(and birds get louder)
trying hard not to let
pass onto my lips,
‘cause I don’t want you
the birds singing
inside my chest
And as my gaze was following the movements of the wet cloth on the floor, the graceful and rhythmic dance around the parts of machines that were touching the wooden floor - I felt something warm rising all the way up through my spine, splashing into my lungs and finally filling my eyes with moist.
I pressed my back harder against the cold glass-wall of empty workout studio and focused on preventing my body from shedding into pieces as crying in the gym while watching the cleaning guy doing his job in cycling area isn’t something normal people do.
The next moment time was up and group class was about to begin so I entered the studio and left the experience at the door managing to switch my focus for the next hour or so. However, that warm feeling caught up with me as soon as I left the gym and lingered within my chest during the whole day.
Watching that old, humble, skinny man cleaning the cycling machines with such care, dedication and almost spiritual devotion cracked something within me. For some reason it called forward my attention and brought me to tears with its raw, stunning simplicity and extraordinary beauty. There was this energy around him, amplified by his peaceful and satisfied smile as he was performing the task. Energy that was so sweet, seductive and... so right.
I saw him immersed and surrendered to the present moment and the action he was in and I craved some of that. I craved that feeling that both you and me tasted in one occasion or another, that feeling of diving deep beneath the layer of thoughts, mental chatter, calculations, planning, self-criticism, judgments and all other bullshit and arriving to that gravity-free state of complete immersion in the performing of an action, becoming the action itself, celebrating the simplicity and complexity that coexist in every endeavour we embark on and surrendering to the present, to the presen-ce, because it is only when we become fully PRESENT that we can become aware and receptive to the PRESENCE, the pulsing that is at the core of all living things - that Source Energy that you call God, Universe, Force or ____________ (insert whatever you like).
So often we forget that the taste of the Infinite Love is available to us at every moment through every task however simple and trivial our judgmental minds may label it to be. You can reach God through meditation, prayer or Ayahuasca ceremony, but you can reach it through cleaning cycling machines or peeling the potatoes, as well.
When we become present,
the Presence reveals itself.
can you please stop running
there’s nothing around the corner
just as nothing was
at the last one you checked
no place you need to be
instead root yourself to the ground
and get quiet
and watch as
the signs on the road appear
whispered from within
guiding you back
back to the place
you ran away from
so long time ago
that the shelter
you were seeking
“Don't try to comprehend with your mind. Your minds are very limited. Use your intuition.”
We live in a heavily left-brained society which means it's all about logic, rationality and scientifically based conclusions.
Growing up in a world like that it is very easy to lose connection with our intuitive voice or start questioning the callings from within as they more times than not do not have a "logical explanation".
As a highly sensitive person I've always been very aware of my intuition and its subtle messages - I'd literally feel a flush of energy rushing through my body and offering me clear guidance about which direction to take when facing a decision. Did I always listen to that voice? Of course not.
They teach us to think rationally, evaluate our options, think about advantages and disadvantages and choose the option that has more of the first and less of the second - nobody teaches us to go silent and do what FEELS right.
It is funny how we think that with our limited perspective we can make the "right" decision about anything at all while there is the eternal voice of our True Selves that sees the bigger picture and offers us guidance at any moment.
Most of us are programmed to doubt and question our "gut feeling" and challenge it by asking "why? why that way and not the other?" But intuition doesn't work like that. You will probably find out only when you look back why that decision was the right one at the given moment, but until then - you have to cultivate trust and develop faith in the existence and accuracy of higher guidance whose only job is to take care of you on this path.
Reconnecting with our intuition and reestablishing trust in it can be hard after years of suppressing, doubting, and ignoring, but it is not impossible. It requires us to go silent more often, tune into our bodies and feel the energy that rushes upwards as we ask the question we want an answer to. Acting upon it may be easy or difficult, but it would always FEEL RIGHT. That is also how we can distinguish intuitive voice from the voice of our Ego that may make us resistant to do the thing that we intuitively know is the right thing to do by reawakening some suppressed emotions that may discourage us to take the inspired action and flow with our intuition and instead make us run back and hide inside our cocoon of comfort, fear and smallness. Ego wants us to stay small, fearful and separate, intuition leads us towards expansion and oneness.
Living in tune with our intuition can be a challenge because most of the people we interact with on daily basis are simply so out of tune with their own inner voices that we may be perceived as childish, crazy or just making stupid excuses to avoid to do something. I still struggle with that and am trying to find a way to stay true to myself and at the same time don't offend or hurt people that i have to say "no" to. I still make stupid excuses because I cannot say that my gut is telling me not to go to that bar and that we should instead go to other... or whatever the situation is. People want a rational, logical explanation that "makes sense" to the brain, but not always to the heart.
However, maybe if we all gain a little courage and slowly start voicing our gut feeling to those surrounding us, maybe by doing so we can give them permission and encouragement to do the same and consequentially we can all create more tuned in and aligned society that can stop being so severely damaged by its "rational thinking".
Tune in, my friends, and allow yourselves to be internally guided.
This week has been so intense and emotional.
I feel full and I want to cry, but not out of sadness or sorrow. I am filled with that deep, deep gratitude, amazement and faith that wash over you when things start to make sense, when you start to notice patterns in the midst of chaos and you just know how everything’s gonna be alright and that things are really happening in your favor.
Every. Single. Time.
I’ve been putting off making certain decisions past few weeks, not out of fear or laziness, but simply because I felt within me that the timing wasn’t right. Wait. It is coming. Have faith. Surrender. I surrendered and love and manifestations I wouldn’t ever have imagined started to pour into my life leaving me soaked up in tears of appreciation and gratitude every single day of this week.
Interestingly, in the middle of that amazement and gratitude I noticed some old shadows reawakening and creeping out as well. Am I good enough? Do I deserve this?
Isn’t that funny and kind of sad at the same time? That even with all the physical evidence, with all these beautiful stuff making their way into my life for a reason, I still don’t feel it completely? As in I felt like the gift was delivered to the wrong door and it is just the question of days when the postman will realize the mistake and knock on my door to pick it back up.
There is a fear and unworthiness wound, a deep-rooted belief that I don’t deserve good stuff happening to me and I can mentally contradict and challenge that belief by listing all the evidence of millions of good things that already happened to me in the past, but that sense of “getting by”, “getting lucky” for a time or two, followed by this low-vibe feeling of undeserving remains.
I am glad, though, that I got to see this clearly for what it is and instead of running away from it, hiding and sabotaging the joy that I am experiencing, the love that dances in every cell of my body, I can stay present with this shadow, let it guide me to its roots and gradually heal my perception. Very common obstacle to attracting what we desire into our time-space reality is that deep-seated belief of being unworthy and undeserving of actually getting what we want - so we end up resisting it on vibrational level or getting close to manifesting it, but then the wound gets triggered and reactivated and we sabotage ourselves and push away the manifestation.
Also, this week I started sharing these posts on Facebook and Instagram and woke up with major vulnerability hangover the day after, when realizing who and who can now read this emotional vomit, how I put myself in danger, how now they’ll all know how unstable I am if they didn’t figure it out before etc. etc. Lots of bullshit, basically. Lots of Ego-created fear of being “discovered”, judged, ridiculed, left alone and... I don’t even know.
Then I had to remind myself of my WHY and the bigger picture I had in my heart and soul when making the decision to share these blogposts on social media and that is to give hope, safe and loving space and that “me too” moment to all those who need it. If I can help or comfort or make feel less alone at least one person on this planet, then my mission was successful.
I believe that this urge and necessity to share my emotions, thoughts, pains, struggles and fears exists because there is someone out there who needs to hear these words. I truly and deeply believe that. I know it.
If your soul’s calling you to do something, it is because there’s someone who’d benefit of you doing so. Stay aware of that.
It is not about me, my reputation, this illusory identity of mine and all the stories that come along (that I sometimes confuse with my True Self). It is not about you, either. It is about us. You and me and he and she... And about all of us realizing we are the same and there is no distinction nor separation outside of the distorted perception of our minds fueled by the Ego’s fear.
Love you all.